Ugh.

List of stuff that has pissed me off today:

Computer. I was on Facebook last night, and some kid from my Chemistry class sent me a message. Being a dumbass, I clicked the link. So now, my laptop has like 32 Trojans and a bunch of other shit on it. Tomorrow, my mom and I are going to Office Max to buy protective software.

Roommate. This morning, my roommate and her friend were in our room. And they were complaining about their PDP teacher. "She's such a bitch. Doesn't she know that she offends us when she says shit like that?" Stuff of that nature. So, Amanda (my roommate's friend) was like, "Lauren, do you have anything to complain about?" Samantha quickly replies, "No, she has a perfect life." And I just scoff. She's like, she doesn't have to worry about all of this boyfriend shit. Yeah, I've just been alone for 18 years. It's so much better than a few relationship problems. That was sarcasm, obviously.

I don't show my emotions when I'm around her, or anyone on campus for that matter. I just act happy all the time, like nothing's wrong. She has no idea how hard MY classes are. And if I try to say something, she changes the subject to something about herself. It just gets old.

My entire life consists of homework, going to class, eating, sleeping, and talking to my friends online. That's another thing, she doesn't know about my online friends, I talk about them, but she doesn't ask questions or anything. I think she thinks they live back at home.

Wet clothes. I despise wet clothes. Socks, pants, hoods. Just, ugh. It's been raining for like 4 days straight. I was hoping it wouldn't be as bad when I got home, but the weather is the same here as it is at school. Oh, and it's supposed to snow tomorrow, which is good, but it's friggin' October. I'm not used to snow until after Thanksgiving.

Chemistry. We got midterm grades today. I have a D+. I've never gotten below a B. End of story.

I don't think I'm gonna proofread this blog. Yeah, I'm not going to.

Tomorrow night, I'm going laser bowling with Brooke and Brenden. Then on Sunday, we're going to the pumpkin patch. Hopefully these things will cheer me up. Then, I'm heading back to campus to study more.

I think I'm gonna print out Chem. help sheets or extra notes. Cause I just need to get that grade up. And it's not like I don't try, cause believe me, I do.

Bye.

French Onion.

This will most definitely be a random entry.

First off. I GOT MRAZ TICKETS. For July 25th. Huzzah.

All AP tests are over, finally. I don't know if I've said it here yet, but I'm attending Bridgewater College in the Fall. Majoring in Physics/Mathematics. I cannot believe that I graduate in 13 days. It's mind-boggling. I have a feeling it's going to be really hot in the gym. I'd love to know who decided to cram 1,000 people into a gym without air conditioning.

I'm kind of really excited for summer and time to relax. I bought 5 new dresses, which is unusual for me. I'm reading this highly addictive series "House of Night." The writing is kind of mediocre, but I can't put it down. Twitter is becoming insanely popular. For example, it has been a "category" and "question" on Jeopardy in the past two weeks. I convinced my dad to make an account, but he doesn't like it.

I'm writing my final term paper, one Jane Eyre and I literally spent 10 out of the 12 hours I've been in school in the past two days working on my rough draft. I'll be very thankful when it's over.

I know most people hate Summer t.v., but it's my favorite time of the year for television. I really like The Universe, How It's Made, and How Do They Do It? For some reason, they remind me of summer. And I know this sounds weird, but I'm really excited cause my sheets are freshly cleaned. It's one of the best things in the world. Brooke is spending the night on Sunday night. She hasn't been over in a long time.

Well, this was insanely random. :)

110 About Me. :)

1. My name is Lauren.

2. If I could meet anyone in the world, it'd be Paula Deen.

3. I am pale and have no desire to be tan. Plus, I burn very easily.

4. I have no desire to drink, smoke, or do drugs.

5. I feel lazy if I just sit around the house for a day.

6. I will be attending Bridgewater College in the fall. My major is Physics/Mathematics.

7. Jason Mraz's music is perfect. End of story.

8. Teal is my favorite color. Dark teal, not aqua.

9. I really, really, reallyx7 want to visit Montana.

10. Augustana is my favorite band of all time. They're amazing.

11. My Blogtv/Twitter name is x3airhead. It has NOTHING to do with my level of intelligence.

12. I HATE wet socks.

13. My eyes are extremely sensitive to the light.

14. If I could marry Alton Brown, I probably would.

15. I have formed some of the closest friendships of my life with people I met on BlogTV.

16. The Food Network is my absolute favorite channel. I'm addicted to it.

17. I am strongly opinionated, but I don't force my opinions on others.

18. I am a Library Aid at my school. I enjoy it a lot.

19. I like peace signs. A lot.

20. I want a navy blue or charcoal Nissan Altima.

21. Just Listen by Sarah Dessen is my favorite Young Adult book.

22. I'm addicted to Diet Coke. It's kind of a problem.

23. Most of the time, I'd rather be alone than with others.

24. When I'm with a lot of people, I tend to keep to myself.

25. My favorite book in general is The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath.

26. To some I may seem like an angry person. But it's just that immature people annoy me.

27. I have very strong political views. And I believe what I believe and not a lot can change that.

28. I love driving on back roads.

29. I'm not very talkative. Most of the time.

30. Some people say that you are either a English or a math/science person. I consider myself both.

31. My current ringtone is "Seven Nation Army" by the White Stripes.

32. I hate when radio stations cut off the beginnings and endings of songs.

33. I appreciate all that my parents give me.

34. I enjoy rainy days more than sunny days.

35. When texting, typing, or anything of that sort, I always type with proper grammar and punctuation. Because if I didn't and tried to type an essay, I would fail.

36. I love cold weather.

37. I am proud of my academic achievements. I've worked VERY hard to be where I am.

38. I've learned a lot, but still have a lot to learn.

39. I hate Monday mornings.

40. My favorite Taylor Swift song is "You're Not Sorry." It's beautiful.

41. Chinese is my favorite foriegn cuisine.

42. Cooking relaxes me more than anything.

43. I enjoy cleanliness. Wait, actually, I strongly prefer it.

44. I am not very good at showing my anger.

45. I love going to the grocery store.

46. I am a nerd to the core.

47. I don't expect a lot from others. I've learned that if I need something done, most of the time I have to do it myself.

48. My grandma's death made me realize that I grieve differently. Really don't wanna get into that.

49. Whenever I hear the song "It's a Great Day to Be Alive" by Travis Tritt, my day instantly improves.

50. I heart Vitamin Water.

51. I'd rather be in a t-shirt and sweatpants than dressed up. Most of the time, sometimes I like to dress up.

52. I find Michael Jackson's current appearance to be frightening.

53. The Green Bay Packers are my favorite NFL team. Always have been and always will be.

54. I am fascinated by Stonehenge.

55. I'm a redneck, but I am an extremely un-racist person.

56. It irritates me when people curse for no reason.

57. In my opinion, "Moby Dick" was the most atrocious book in the history of literature.

58. My music collection varies drastically.

59. If I could remember how to read sheet music, I would be able to play my keyboard. But unfortunately, I forget.

60. I wish I could sing, but I am extremely tone-deaf.

61. My dad and I constantly argue about the stupidest things. Like whether saffron is red or yellow.

62. I am very glad my dad got to see Brett Favre play at Lambeau Field before he retired.

63. I once spent an entire Friday night on Wikipedia looking through the Seven World Wonders and possible Eighth World Wonders.

64. Brooke Leigh is my best friend in the entire world. She has been since the first grade.

65. When I think of my childhood, I imagine myself at my Grandma Thelma's house.

66. I love my parents. A lot.

67. I hate sympathy.

68. Grammar mistakes bother me.

69. I just learned how to ride a bike a few years ago.

70. I say the word "hooker" frequently.

71. I cannot smile on command. When I do, it's pathetic.

72. I hate waking up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom.

73. I am addicted to shampoo.

74. I'm still in shock about Heath Ledger's death. I don't think the feeling will ever dissolve.

75. I used to consider him the best looking man on the planet.

76. I cut out words from magazine's and make collages on my bedroom doors and bulletin boards.

77. I have an icon xanga site. www.xanga.com/chikadee198540.

78. I know it's weird, but I enjoy peeling off sunburn.

79. I am not willing to spend a lot of money on fashion items.

80. Pineapple is my favorite food in the world.

81. I love when a song gives me goosebumps.

82. I love the show "Good Eats."

83. I enjoy knowing stupid facts that no one else cares about.

84. I have a blanket that I always sleep with. I got it a few years ago. It's incredible.

85. I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow.

86. The movie "The Incredibles" makes me VERY happy.

87. I watch Jeopardy with my parents every single evening.

88. I have an unnecessary amount of pillows on my bed. Eleven to be exact.

89. I'm addicted to Stride Forever Fruit gum.

90. Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday.

91. I love cooking. Especially for others.

92. I love the natural color of my hair.

93. I hate talking on the telephone.

94. I have had A.D.H.D. since the first grade. Without my medicine, I couldn't concentrate to save my life.

95. Animated movies are my favorite.

96. I hate when a good book is ruined when someone tries to make it into a movie.

97. I think every guy looks good in a plain white long sleeve t-shirt.

98. Maturity and intelligence are the first things I look for in a guy. Looks are about the last.

99. I love mango smoothies from Panera Bread.

100. I love plaid with a passion.

101. The shampoo I use the most is Herbal Essences' Drama Clean.

102. I find myself to be more responsible than most teenagers.

103. I write in cursive most of the time.

104. I'd rather be cold than hot.

105. Unlike most people, I don't want to be famous. I don't like large crowds or a lot of attention.

106. I am used to sugar-free products. I can't taste the difference. And the people who say they can, I think most of it is psychological.

107. My dad wants me to be a psychologist, he's insane.

108. People who try to impress people by talking loud on their cell phones bother me more than anything.

109. I don't wear clothes that are uncomfortable. If I want dress clothes, they have to be comfortable as well.

110. I love the feeling that I get when I am tutoring/teaching/helping someone with school work and they finally understand it.

So, basically I'm going to write about whatever comes to mind. This may be completely scattered and confusing, but oh well.

I was accepted to my first choice college, so that stress is gone. But now the senioritis is kicking in and it's only January. A new semester started last Wednesday, and I'm liking my new classes a lot. Except I became accustomed to leaving at 2:00. Now I have to stay until 3:30 for cooking.

Schedule:

1.) AP English Literature.
2.) Library Aide.
3.) AP Human Geography.
4.) Food Service I.

I've been feeling really bad lately because I haven't spent time with my grandparents in a really long time.

One of my mom's co-workers has a son in the seventh grade who needs help with math, so I'm going to tutor him. I'm exicted for that.

I'm as sick as a dog, but it's stupid to miss school because making up work is 10 times harder than just sitting through the school day. My mom did a throat culture to test for strep but it has to sit for a day, so if I do have it, I won't get my anit-biotics until tomorrow.

For AP English, we are reading Frankenstein, and the way that Mary Shelley writes is KILLING me. She uses so many unnecessary words that just make the meaning harder to undersand.

Claire's mom found out I sent Claire a birthday cake and she is not happy. If her mom doesn't let her talk to us, I'll be angry and sad.

It's also Bella's 17th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, again.

Scattered and Stressed.

Okay. Not to bitch, but things just aren't going my way.

I stayed home sick from school for the first time in a while on Monday, leaving me behind in my classes. I have a huge AP Calculus test tomorrow, 2 final drafts due tomorrow, and an oral speech in AP English. If you didn't know, I am not could with expressing myself verbally. I prefer using written words. So this speech is stressing me out.

Oh, and I'm still sick.

So today, I was walking to my car in the parking lot and notice that my tire is a little flat--turns out it was very flat and the ride home didn't help any.. So when my dad got home, he and my brother went to about 4 gas stations--all which find it acceptable to not have any air in their pumps. So, my car is in the back of a gas station parking lot.

Now I have to get up 45 minutes early tomorrow and take my mom to work so I have transportation to and from school.

Finally, while printing my papers tonight, the printer decides it is gonna spaz out and run out of black ink. So it took me an hour to fix that and print out my papers--which are printed in navy blue. Haha.

I know this whole blog is very scattered and confusing, but I just need to get this out and I have no other outlet.

AND, I have been singing the song "Roses" by OutKast since Saturday. That song makes me giggle. : )

Random.

Lyrics that summarize my life at the moment:

"But they'll realize jealousy has taken over their minds." -Demi Lovato.

"Hold your own, know your name, and go your own way and everything will be fine." -Jason Mraz.

"Finding more and more truth in the words written in red... You can't tell me it all ends in a slow ride in a hearse." -Brooks & Dunn.

"But I sure soaked up every minute of the memory we were making. And I count it all as time well wasted." -Brad Paisley.

"I've been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down." -Taylor Swift.


Yesterday, Gary (ForSeriousGary) posted a blog about the lack of proper English used in everyday Internet conversations. Improper grammar and spelling on the Internet pisses me off as well. Proofreading a twitter, IM, or text message takes 5 seconds and may prevent you from making a mistake that could change the meaning of your statement. And then there are the people who invent their own freaking abbreviations that cannot possibly be understood by anyone but themselves.

However, what irks me more than that is when people seek confidence on the Internet. For example, when someone posts a picture of themselves on Myspace/Facebook and types the following caption, "I hate this picture, I look so ugly." You do not hate that picture, if you did, you would have never posted it. They are just searching for people who will tell them that they look beautiful. Ugh, it makes me mad.

Sidenote: This is not directed to anyone. It is influenced by my overall experience on the Internet.

I need to stop.

Okay, so basically I work my ass off in school. Everyday, everynight. And this morning I realized that I'm taking it to the extreme. I need to slow down.

I am so effing sick of working my butt off on homework that my English teacher does not even grade. It was okay in the beginning of the year, but the semester is 2/3 of the way over and it's still happening. And it's not like I can say anything to her. And I really like her as a teacher and a person, but she needs to realize the effort her students--well at least me--put into her assignments.

My father has been telling me this for the past 2 years, but it took the insight of a hilbilly in Calculus--obviously an intellignet hilbilly--to confirm the fact that I work way too hard, with small reward.

On a happy note.

I am so excited for Christmas this year. The season is so full of happiness and love. Oh, and not to be arrogant, but our house looks banging during Christmas time.

: ) Lauren.